Frischkase

Few things I love more than a nice german bread with seeds in it, that I cut in nice slices, and then put cream cheese on it with some chunky chat masala. It's the golden find for me; I could eat a whole bread like that in one go, it's just that delicious.

Today I was given a choice, a tough one. It's funny that sometimes choices seem hard at first, but they end up being easy, whereas now the choice seemed easy, but it ended up being hard. So let me explain...

As you know I've been traveling around a lot lately, but not for Art of Living. I always seem to manage myself into some exceptional status in which I can do whatever I want. It must be some kind of gift, but at the same time it's a weakness, because it lets me stay in my comfort zone whereas, others would've gotten pulled out already. So I would say: Use with caution.

So Katya, manager of YWC, sent me an email the other day telling me I should come back to BA to help with christmas preparations there. I replied that it would have little use since I'm going back to Holland in a few days. Then she said that I was doing all these things aside from YWC, and she was asking me if I still consider myself to be in YWC. It's not like she told me what to do, she just wanted me to make up my mind; you're either on the team, or you're off the team.

At first the choice seemed logical; if I can't do what I want, then I'll be off the team. But as time passed, it became evident to me that I would have to stay, for it was in my best interest. I was imagining how it would be if I were to stay on YWC, because the only reason why I make my own plans is because of Iva. Other than that I really don't care; they can send me where ever they want. Then I thought of leaving YWC, so going to the winterbreak in a few weeks, then coming back home, finding a job, and plan my next trip. As I thought of this I observed that my energy immediately went down; deep in my heart, I wanted to stay.

So the decision was made, now it was to deal with the consequences. What if I wouldn't be able to come back to Holland on the 16th, but a few days later? Would I tell Iva to cancel her flights? I already pulled that on her once, and I knew a second time could really be a crack on our relationship. Not on my side, because I don't really mind; I love her anyway. So I decided to use my diplomatic skills to see if I can get a compromise, but even if not I'd accept it. And it passed as said above; I get to go back to Holland on the 16th, but after that it's YWC all the way. Yes m'am! So I saved myself out of my own shit once again, but I went with caution. This is the way.

Besides, ever since I finished high school I've started studies without finishing them. I feel that I need to finish this, and when I do, then I'll feel good and I'll be able to start the next chapter with full enthousiasm. And I already know what that will be, but until that time I'll be completely focused on this. I remember Rajshree saying that we get strength from following through on our commitments, I even remember some of my own lyrics saying "if you don't go all the way it aint worth it", and that's a righteous truth right there.

My perception and judgment crystal clear from the Frischkase, as Camille said. And yes my French friend; it's definitely a good decision. Socratez is gonna rock your world!