And so it came to pass that on the last Saturday, I got to Mainz for about 10 euros by train. Find other people to share a wochenende ticket with, easy! I had so much luggage to carry it was driving me crazy at times. I had a bag, a suitcase, another bag and an amplifier to carry from Offenburg to Mainz; at least we got a mic and amp now so we can do some damage here!
Since Camille told me I can stay with Iva in the same place, that is what I will do. We're going to organize Yes+ here from the 9th until the 14th of July. The ending on the 14th, that should make for a big party! Maybe we can go to Cologne or something in the evening to have an after party.
We've been to the city one time so far, and it was pretty nice. Not as charming as Freiburg, but when you set that as your standard you'll find that most places are crap compared. However, every town has it's own character so it's just about learning to appreciate it. Mainz is cool for sure, it's a city with old architecture and full of trees, fountains, parks, statues and lies on the bank of a big river, the Rijn. I don't know how they call it in German but that's how we call it in Holland because it flows through Germany to our lands into the Northsea.
Sounds like I know my stuff, but I don't; I'm just guessing.
So we've been into the city and met some people, musicians actually, again. I like musicians; they're friendly, open minded people who are in touch with themselves. Sometimes a bit too much so to say, as in going too much with their emotions; that's why so many musicians face personal problems in the showbizz. But we have a solution for that: Youth Empowerment Seminar! And it's free, on donation basis! Offered to you by Neringa, Emanuel, Iva and ofcourse, me. We just assist however, Isaac is the actual teacher.
But for a course you need people, so that's our main focus in the coming weeks. We'll set up a date for an introduction workshop so people can get a glimpse of what is to come, and then have them sign up for the big celebration of life. Also we'll need to raise some funds; our group is broke and I really don't feel like spending more of my own money, cause I've already done that too much in the past 2 months. If you didn't know yet: I still haven't received any money from 'them' for my traveling expenses. And most of the bills I don't have anymore, I mean, you expect me to keep bills for 2 months? I'll need to check my bank withdrawels to get my reimbursement.
Today I'm gonna dress up business, cause we need to do some big business. I want some hard currency so we can keep pimpin' it here. Then get some free food from the market and we're ready to go and recruit tomorrow's leaders. Peace out!
Sunday, 28 June 2009
Thursday, 25 June 2009
Who the Fuck
When you pass by the Art of Living Academy in the Black Forest, you'll no doubt see a newly added refreshing paint on the walls. Why would I mention this? Because it's done by me, at least a part of it. The lower walls of the building are brown now instead of white, I guess they wanted to conceal the dirt. Anyway, I guess colour is in the name; it's no coincidence that I painted it brown.
Doing seva hasn't given me much satisfaction so far. I tried to get my head empty by keeping my hands busy, but in fact I only found peace when I started observing myself.
I understand why seva would work but I suppose it doesn't really work for me. I'm not a laborer, that sounds so aristocratic, but it's true. Or I make it true. Whatever, it works for me. I should've been born in the Classical Greek Age and discuss with Plato how the perfect state would look like.
Maybe I was, in a past life. Who knows, I still need to do this eternity process. I'll most likely find out that I was in the military recently, it's so obvious that all I need is a simple confirmation. Today Dominika and Natalia said I look so much friendlier, but they couldn't figure out why. But eventually they concluded that it was because of my hair; I haven't shaved it for a while so it's slightly longer than usual now. So there's the proof: I really am a nice guy.
Ever since I came to the ashram on tuesday, things have been really weird. I don't know why, I just feel strange. I was trying to get some lyrics done the other day, but in 20 minutes I only managed to write down one line! My head was such a mess, I couldn't come up with anything decent. Then I threw my little notebook next to me on the couch and went grumpy. So 2 minutes later I picked it up again and started writing, it went well, finally. Today I finished the second verse, now I just need to finish the chorus. I figured this song is gonna be about who the fuck I am, told in a humorous way. I've been searching for my artistic identity lately; I'm looking for the perfect translation from my character to my lyrical equivalent. And I must say I'm getting closer everytime I write another song. I've already decided that this is going to be the second song on my album, after the introduction which is going to be in dutch.
But let's change the subject. Today Camille really surprised me. You see, I sent a mail earlier in the morning about me and Iva wanting to be together in the same town. I gave him a few arguments why this would be good for both our personal and Art of Living interests and ended with saying that Khani should send us some food. I didn't expect much for an answer but I figured it couldn't do any harm to restate my thoughts once more. After all, y'all know I'm persistent, because eventually it tends to work out for me. I won't say "so it did once again!" because the last word hasn't been said yet, and I'm well aware of karma biting me hard in my ass when I make bold statements. However, I can say that Camille - after going into my arguments - was actually quite forthcoming! Not out of empathy for my situation though, it was more along the lines of: I'm getting really tired of having to track you down everytime to see if you're following orders, so please, have it your way, but then you gotta do it my way too. Which comes down to me and Iva in the same city, following his plan. It's a good compromise, both our energies will be working with eachother instead of against eachother.
However Kamlesh and Christoph still need to give the green light for this idea. I can't imagine Kamlesh would be too bothered by this, he's too busy with his own stuff anyway. And Christoph promised me he would send us somewhere together sometime. So this is a major achievement! But it's still not worth a dime if it's not all the way. Almost is still not. And not is still shit, and nobody wants shit. Talking about shit; eat falafels and pide for a week and see how your shit looks like.
Anyway, I arranged for a ride to Mainz on sunday evening. I will meet up with Iva, Neringa and Emanuelles then. It still remains to be seen whether I stay there or if Iva comes with me to Osnabruck. I suppose both places are nice, so it doesn't really matter. It's just that I still have some stuff of my own in Osnabruck; nothing that I can't miss though. And I still have some of their stuff that I was supposed to bring back from the ashram.
Small inconveniences, small problems for which there will be small solutions. But I'll be reunited with my sushi and my cherry! And not just that, but it's also legit! No more need fo' hustle.
Clean sheet, dirty sheats ahahaha.
One last note; this evening my friend Jan from Holland called me up to see how I was doing. I was telling him that I was doubting whether I should stay for a year or 6 months. He replied like "Oh my God you're having the most fun atm, traveling around and meeting new people, while I'm at school reading books. I'm envying you, and you dare to complain to me? Look at where you are now". I said "I'm looking at the Black Forest" and he continued "See that's what I'm talking about! How can you not be grateful for that". He was so right, I really felt shaken up in a good way. Sometimes it's good to have someone from outside the program make you realize how lucky you are and that you should be grateful for such an unique opportunity. After a while I tend to take things for granted, it's important to be aware of this and take every moment as being given to you. So thanks Jan, I was about to fall asleep when you opened my eyes there.
I will stay for a year, for sure. That's my word.
Doing seva hasn't given me much satisfaction so far. I tried to get my head empty by keeping my hands busy, but in fact I only found peace when I started observing myself.
I understand why seva would work but I suppose it doesn't really work for me. I'm not a laborer, that sounds so aristocratic, but it's true. Or I make it true. Whatever, it works for me. I should've been born in the Classical Greek Age and discuss with Plato how the perfect state would look like.
Maybe I was, in a past life. Who knows, I still need to do this eternity process. I'll most likely find out that I was in the military recently, it's so obvious that all I need is a simple confirmation. Today Dominika and Natalia said I look so much friendlier, but they couldn't figure out why. But eventually they concluded that it was because of my hair; I haven't shaved it for a while so it's slightly longer than usual now. So there's the proof: I really am a nice guy.
Ever since I came to the ashram on tuesday, things have been really weird. I don't know why, I just feel strange. I was trying to get some lyrics done the other day, but in 20 minutes I only managed to write down one line! My head was such a mess, I couldn't come up with anything decent. Then I threw my little notebook next to me on the couch and went grumpy. So 2 minutes later I picked it up again and started writing, it went well, finally. Today I finished the second verse, now I just need to finish the chorus. I figured this song is gonna be about who the fuck I am, told in a humorous way. I've been searching for my artistic identity lately; I'm looking for the perfect translation from my character to my lyrical equivalent. And I must say I'm getting closer everytime I write another song. I've already decided that this is going to be the second song on my album, after the introduction which is going to be in dutch.
But let's change the subject. Today Camille really surprised me. You see, I sent a mail earlier in the morning about me and Iva wanting to be together in the same town. I gave him a few arguments why this would be good for both our personal and Art of Living interests and ended with saying that Khani should send us some food. I didn't expect much for an answer but I figured it couldn't do any harm to restate my thoughts once more. After all, y'all know I'm persistent, because eventually it tends to work out for me. I won't say "so it did once again!" because the last word hasn't been said yet, and I'm well aware of karma biting me hard in my ass when I make bold statements. However, I can say that Camille - after going into my arguments - was actually quite forthcoming! Not out of empathy for my situation though, it was more along the lines of: I'm getting really tired of having to track you down everytime to see if you're following orders, so please, have it your way, but then you gotta do it my way too. Which comes down to me and Iva in the same city, following his plan. It's a good compromise, both our energies will be working with eachother instead of against eachother.
However Kamlesh and Christoph still need to give the green light for this idea. I can't imagine Kamlesh would be too bothered by this, he's too busy with his own stuff anyway. And Christoph promised me he would send us somewhere together sometime. So this is a major achievement! But it's still not worth a dime if it's not all the way. Almost is still not. And not is still shit, and nobody wants shit. Talking about shit; eat falafels and pide for a week and see how your shit looks like.
Anyway, I arranged for a ride to Mainz on sunday evening. I will meet up with Iva, Neringa and Emanuelles then. It still remains to be seen whether I stay there or if Iva comes with me to Osnabruck. I suppose both places are nice, so it doesn't really matter. It's just that I still have some stuff of my own in Osnabruck; nothing that I can't miss though. And I still have some of their stuff that I was supposed to bring back from the ashram.
Small inconveniences, small problems for which there will be small solutions. But I'll be reunited with my sushi and my cherry! And not just that, but it's also legit! No more need fo' hustle.
Clean sheet, dirty sheats ahahaha.
One last note; this evening my friend Jan from Holland called me up to see how I was doing. I was telling him that I was doubting whether I should stay for a year or 6 months. He replied like "Oh my God you're having the most fun atm, traveling around and meeting new people, while I'm at school reading books. I'm envying you, and you dare to complain to me? Look at where you are now". I said "I'm looking at the Black Forest" and he continued "See that's what I'm talking about! How can you not be grateful for that". He was so right, I really felt shaken up in a good way. Sometimes it's good to have someone from outside the program make you realize how lucky you are and that you should be grateful for such an unique opportunity. After a while I tend to take things for granted, it's important to be aware of this and take every moment as being given to you. So thanks Jan, I was about to fall asleep when you opened my eyes there.
I will stay for a year, for sure. That's my word.
Tuesday, 23 June 2009
Vive la Revolution!
Today I said goodbye to my sushi, it was very emotional, because I gave her Isaac and you all know that he's the cherry on the pie that is me. Did you ever buy a pie without a cherry on top? Exactly, that's what I thought. I mean, if the baker didn't even take the effort to put a cherry on top of his wonderful creation then how wonderful can it be? He probably made it with some machine that will never be able to add the secret ingredient that makes everything so much more tasteful: Love.
So never buy a pie without a cherry on top; it says everything about the way it was made. My cherry is with my sushi, they go well together if you didn't figure that out yet. But really, I'm already looking forward to see my sushi again, with the cherry ofcourse. You guys really have to keep up with my nicknames, don't be so yesterday. Keep up with my pace, please.
Whatever, I like sushi, but my sushi likes it even more. That's why I call her sushi, but mostly because of the way she pronounces it; it's like someone who really, really enjoys sushi. Anyway, so we had a temporary goodbye; ofcourse we'll meet again. Next weekend we planned. Let's see if I can pull this off without pissing off too many people. Well, many people? More like one guy. More like one stuck up guy. And even more accurate would be to say that it's one stuck up french guy. Why is it always the french? First Louis XIV, then Napoleon and after that they didn't even have the guts to stand up against Hitler. They eat blue cheese and drink wine like they've got it all figured out but when shit needs to be delivered what do they do? Yea let's get some blacks from our former colonies to do the work for us, so we can keep drinking wine and eating cheese with ze baguettes. Alright, enough racism. You know I love France, the accent alone, I mean, lovely. I rip on those that I love, so don't go sacre bleuing on me now.
But let's get back to what I was about to say before I lost myself a little bit there. I was going to say that Camille is the only guy who seems to be making decisions as to where we are all being sent to. Do I like this? Hell no! One guy, one french guy, deciding where everyone is gonna go? Where does he get the arrogance to think he knows what's best for everyone? He doesn't even share his plans with the other members of CLP management I heard today. I heard it from another manager, or at least, supposed to be manager. Not her fault tho', I mean if the french don't want to share their cheese where are you gonna get it from?
That's right: Holland! We can make cheese too; I've made cheese before and I'll do it again if I have to. Our cheese is healthier anyway. Really, this newly aquired intelligence puts my whole opinion about Yes We Can in a completely new light. Not as pretty as before I might add. I know that I have a problem with authority, but when 6 people tell me what to do that's still far better than when one guy tells me what to do. Especially when I know that this one guy has personal issues which he allows to come in between his supposedly professional judgement. I really see less and less reason by the minute while I'm rambling on about this, to even take the current authority serious. Ofcourse Kamlesh is in charge officially, but he's really just minding his own stuff and letting Camille call the shots. I have a very clear idea about what I want right now, and I have very good reason to believe that my ideoligies are not shared by the 'management' which in fact - as I've pointed out - only really consists of one stuck up french guy who wants everything to go his way. I suppose he's the perfect man for this job; to dictate other people what to do and call in the big guns when he feels he's losing control over the people.
In a conspiracy, the first line of defense is secrecy. When that is breached, it's only a matter of time until things will quickly fall down. Awareness is the arch enemy of the conspirers. I feel it's a matter of time until I decide I have enough of all this bullshit and continue on my own path, do what I want to do and go where I want to go. I feel a climax coming, the grand finale in which everything will be decided! I feel the time is coming, my friends, for a revolution! I've already marked July the 14th on my calendar as a possible date at which this is going to happen. And it will be celebrated in all of France, the irony!
It would be a good idea to be in Paris at that time and celebrate my freedom there together with all my amis, my sushi and my cherry. I would probably have the highest sense of freedom there, amongst all the french, after breaking free from another french guy. I tell you, these people do not make any sense. Just stick to cheese and wine and let the blacks do the work, that's why we got Obama right?
Monday, 22 June 2009
Kickin' it
Ola, how is everyone doing?
Yesterday was the last day of the Yes+ course. Because some people couldn't show up on monday we decided to compress the course into 5 days. Normally today would've been the last day so there were some complications with compressing the program.
Some of us wanted to cover all the stuff that was in the original program, while others - like me - wanted to leave some stuff out to save time. The thing is, in martial arts you learn that the best way to not teach someone anything is to teach him alot in a short amount of time. This will result in so much chaos in the mind that the student will not remember anything in the end.
But I guess that's part of the process, this was our first course to teach so I can't complain. Besides, I think we did pretty well actually, we received alot of positive feedback from the participants and everyone enjoyed it.
So I lost my virginity being a teacher. I leaded a few processes and it was really cool to do. I felt very natural in getting the point across and people really got the message. I could just see it in their eyes. The thing is, I don't talk about stuff that I don't know. At least not as a teacher. I mean, it's funny to talk about stuff you don't know and have a laugh with it, but as a teacher you have a certain responsibility. If you don't get what you're talking about, then how are you gonna teach the students anything? That's why I always hate it when people do this; they only create confusion in their students and it's like a stain on the rest of the knowledge. The moment you doubt something, it will most likely give birth to more doubt. It's a vicious circle that you can't afford to have. So just shut up if you don't know what you're talking about.
What now? Camille called me to ask me when I'm going back to Osnabruck. I told him tuesday, so that's tomorrow. Today I'll be having my day off with Iva, our last day together for a while. Tomorrow we'll catch a ride together but eventually we'll split; I get out at Offenburg because I need to go back to Bad Antogast to grab some stuff before I continue on to Osnabruck, and Iva will move on to Mainz. It's the way it is, so just enjoy the ride as long as it lasts, and plan ahead for the next one. There's no point in thinking about the future with sadness, it will only have you miss out on the magic that is happening right now. Ofcourse you can't tell your mind "let's not think about the future", but you can adopt an attitude of having faith that everything will be alright and then the thoughts that disturb you will move like clouds blown away when they block the sun.
Let that sun shine, you are the wind of your life. That wind is your breath, and you can use it to blow away all the clouds that are roaming your sky. Make it clear blue, feel the warmth of the sun that is your nature. Get a nice tan, and you'll feel much healthier and prettier than ever before. And those chicks will dig you, that's my word. But don't go to a tanning salon, that's for gay people who can't deal with the clouds. They might look tanned, but they aint happy and healthy, and chicks won't dig. It's fake, not genuine, and it only serves as self deceit. If you want that real tan, you need to get out there.
So today I'm kickin' it. We're gonna get a thai massage, eat sushi and have some cheese with olives dipped in pesto, and ofcourse, a nice wine. Treat yourself, don't cheat yourself. I'm not really into this wine thing but Iva loves it and it makes me feel haute culture. Maybe I'll start liking it someday, who knows. Play the game along and get paid, then you have enough time to get laid. Sounds shallow, but you gotta read between the lines. You can't get laid before you get paid, so take care of bullshit and do some real shit.
Pimp it by kickin' it. I care, I share. Bye!
Yesterday was the last day of the Yes+ course. Because some people couldn't show up on monday we decided to compress the course into 5 days. Normally today would've been the last day so there were some complications with compressing the program.
Some of us wanted to cover all the stuff that was in the original program, while others - like me - wanted to leave some stuff out to save time. The thing is, in martial arts you learn that the best way to not teach someone anything is to teach him alot in a short amount of time. This will result in so much chaos in the mind that the student will not remember anything in the end.
But I guess that's part of the process, this was our first course to teach so I can't complain. Besides, I think we did pretty well actually, we received alot of positive feedback from the participants and everyone enjoyed it.
So I lost my virginity being a teacher. I leaded a few processes and it was really cool to do. I felt very natural in getting the point across and people really got the message. I could just see it in their eyes. The thing is, I don't talk about stuff that I don't know. At least not as a teacher. I mean, it's funny to talk about stuff you don't know and have a laugh with it, but as a teacher you have a certain responsibility. If you don't get what you're talking about, then how are you gonna teach the students anything? That's why I always hate it when people do this; they only create confusion in their students and it's like a stain on the rest of the knowledge. The moment you doubt something, it will most likely give birth to more doubt. It's a vicious circle that you can't afford to have. So just shut up if you don't know what you're talking about.
What now? Camille called me to ask me when I'm going back to Osnabruck. I told him tuesday, so that's tomorrow. Today I'll be having my day off with Iva, our last day together for a while. Tomorrow we'll catch a ride together but eventually we'll split; I get out at Offenburg because I need to go back to Bad Antogast to grab some stuff before I continue on to Osnabruck, and Iva will move on to Mainz. It's the way it is, so just enjoy the ride as long as it lasts, and plan ahead for the next one. There's no point in thinking about the future with sadness, it will only have you miss out on the magic that is happening right now. Ofcourse you can't tell your mind "let's not think about the future", but you can adopt an attitude of having faith that everything will be alright and then the thoughts that disturb you will move like clouds blown away when they block the sun.
Let that sun shine, you are the wind of your life. That wind is your breath, and you can use it to blow away all the clouds that are roaming your sky. Make it clear blue, feel the warmth of the sun that is your nature. Get a nice tan, and you'll feel much healthier and prettier than ever before. And those chicks will dig you, that's my word. But don't go to a tanning salon, that's for gay people who can't deal with the clouds. They might look tanned, but they aint happy and healthy, and chicks won't dig. It's fake, not genuine, and it only serves as self deceit. If you want that real tan, you need to get out there.
So today I'm kickin' it. We're gonna get a thai massage, eat sushi and have some cheese with olives dipped in pesto, and ofcourse, a nice wine. Treat yourself, don't cheat yourself. I'm not really into this wine thing but Iva loves it and it makes me feel haute culture. Maybe I'll start liking it someday, who knows. Play the game along and get paid, then you have enough time to get laid. Sounds shallow, but you gotta read between the lines. You can't get laid before you get paid, so take care of bullshit and do some real shit.
Pimp it by kickin' it. I care, I share. Bye!
Thursday, 18 June 2009
My First Yes+
It has finally started, my first Yes+ course is a reality and yesterday was the first day of the course. Tatiana is the teacher, but we're doing most of the stuff. She just jumps in when she needs to, but she's giving us the opportunity to do our thing and learn from this new experience. I really appreciate it; I don't think many other teachers would've given us so much freedom, but this is exactly what - just to speak for myself - I need to grow.
At times I must admit I kind of lost the overview; you see all this stuff happening and it's not easy to both enjoy the process and keep overview on the situation as a whole at the same time.
However, this is simply part of the learning process, for us this is just as much a new experience as for the participants. I could say that we teachers ourselves are just as much participant actually.
It's great to see this event from the other angle. The funny thing is that I've only done my first seminar half a year ago and now I'm teaching one; it's surreal in a way, but that makes it very cool! I feel natural bringing the message across, I just have to get used to the order in which things are supposed to happen. After all, you need to learn the rules in order to break them properly. And I will most certainly break them properly when I get the freedom to do so. I know what this stuff is about and I know in which fashion I want to bring the point across. Today we'll do the long kriya with them for the first time, so I'm very excited to see the results!
I can't wait to lead some of the processes that we'll be doing in the coming days. The point of all the processes in Yes+ is to create self awareness and lately I can sense this so easily with people. I would really like to confront people with their own thoughts and believes. Most important is that it's done with love and not because of ego. The self is always coming through.
When we die, we need to accept death. Else we'll live in our own illusion, lock ourselves up in a cage that excists only in our mind. It's like those stories about people who were on hallucogenic drugs and are not able to pass the obstacles that they make up in their heads. In fact, every obstacle is a concept of the mind. In reality, there are no obstacles. The word obstacle itself is nothing more than the interpretation of the mind; we qualify something as an obstacle and this will reflect back in the world that we perceive.
I like 3 scoop icecreams; it allows for a perfect cycle of taste and you can make really nice combinations. When you take 4 or more scoops, it's easy to get lost. With 1, your icecream will stay the same after the first lick. With 2, you'll switch back and forth all the time between tastes, so it's not a surprise anymore. Ofcourse, I can still remember with 3 tastes I took, but it still makes for a nice change everytime I take a bite.
In Freiburg we have alot of icecream stands, and they're all good! It's amazing. Today I took rafaello, bacio and banana. I can advice this to anymore, it's a winner! But I'll think of more righteous combinations, don't worry!
At times I must admit I kind of lost the overview; you see all this stuff happening and it's not easy to both enjoy the process and keep overview on the situation as a whole at the same time.
However, this is simply part of the learning process, for us this is just as much a new experience as for the participants. I could say that we teachers ourselves are just as much participant actually.
It's great to see this event from the other angle. The funny thing is that I've only done my first seminar half a year ago and now I'm teaching one; it's surreal in a way, but that makes it very cool! I feel natural bringing the message across, I just have to get used to the order in which things are supposed to happen. After all, you need to learn the rules in order to break them properly. And I will most certainly break them properly when I get the freedom to do so. I know what this stuff is about and I know in which fashion I want to bring the point across. Today we'll do the long kriya with them for the first time, so I'm very excited to see the results!
I can't wait to lead some of the processes that we'll be doing in the coming days. The point of all the processes in Yes+ is to create self awareness and lately I can sense this so easily with people. I would really like to confront people with their own thoughts and believes. Most important is that it's done with love and not because of ego. The self is always coming through.
When we die, we need to accept death. Else we'll live in our own illusion, lock ourselves up in a cage that excists only in our mind. It's like those stories about people who were on hallucogenic drugs and are not able to pass the obstacles that they make up in their heads. In fact, every obstacle is a concept of the mind. In reality, there are no obstacles. The word obstacle itself is nothing more than the interpretation of the mind; we qualify something as an obstacle and this will reflect back in the world that we perceive.
I like 3 scoop icecreams; it allows for a perfect cycle of taste and you can make really nice combinations. When you take 4 or more scoops, it's easy to get lost. With 1, your icecream will stay the same after the first lick. With 2, you'll switch back and forth all the time between tastes, so it's not a surprise anymore. Ofcourse, I can still remember with 3 tastes I took, but it still makes for a nice change everytime I take a bite.
In Freiburg we have alot of icecream stands, and they're all good! It's amazing. Today I took rafaello, bacio and banana. I can advice this to anymore, it's a winner! But I'll think of more righteous combinations, don't worry!
Monday, 15 June 2009
Freiburg
The last week was awesome! On wednesday I left for Bad Antogast to play 2 football tournaments, one on wednesday and one on friday. Both were alot of fun! Ironically, on wednesday we had too many players so we were switching very fast which was an annoyance in a certain way because I just couldn't get in my flow. However, we had alot of fun and there was a great team spirit like you can expect from the Art of Living so it was definately a night to remember.
We made it to the finals but we lost that match, although I did manage to score! Saved our honour so to say. Then thursday the sweet and mischievous Iva showed up to...collect flyers, foreal!
We had a good time together, and I convinced her to stay for friday aswell cause she felt this need to go back to Freiburg to do some other stuff.
But we all know that nobody can say no to me, so she stayed and cheered for us on friday.
On friday we could hardly get enough players to fill up the spots on the field, with struggle we managed to convince just enough people to be able to play; we were 6 total.
So no substitutioning, playing full matches baby, it was tough at times but our team did really well. Actually, the day of rest that we had on thursday (although I didn't get much rest :o) really worked wonders; the experience from the day before was delivering on friday in more stamina, strength and technique. I was really happy with our play. I mean, yea, some of us barely played any football at all so you can't expect too much, but we really all pushed our limits and gave it our 100%.
Our results weren't as mindblowing as the first tournament, but the spirit was there just as strong as ever. As I like to say; we really felt the glory from within, and that's so true. We probably had more fun than those who actually won the tournament; we left the field cheering and screaming, it was good!
Then we had the best dinner ever, made by Khani. I tell you, and I told him aswell, he can easily replace the cooks in the Academy in Bad Antogast; it was that good, simply amazing.
I told Iva to take classes at Khani's kitchen, damn I want more of that stuff!
So what next, I escaped with Iva to Strassbourg. It was really good to spend time with her outside of the ashram. I mean even though it's kind of accepted by most people it's still not the same. Stefan, the janitor was making alot of jokes about it. I remember he was asking me why Iva was sleeping, I was like yea she's tired from yesterday and then he laughed "yea right". Also I had to lay a pipeline with Konstantinos, Stefan took the opportunity to joke about the lubrication that we had to use to put the pipes together, "yea Steven had has much practice the last few days!".
So we were in Strassbourg eating cheese and having wine, it was a really sunny weekend so we couldn't have picked a better time to do this. Something really changed since the last time we saw eachother, in a good way. This is real shit fo sho!
On sunday I went back with her to Freiburg. You see, Pernille is in Denmark right now so I didn't see much sense into going back to Osnabruck and being there alone trying to organize a basic course. Not when I can make myself so much more useful in Freiburg, because here they're organizing Yes+ which is so much cooler since it addresses young people. And I like to work with young people, I can connect easier and I like the energy that comes from uplifting them. I like to see their individual skills, which are so amazing, like Tilman who I met today, but more about him later.
Camille called me today, telling me I should head back to Osnabruck ASAP. I was like no I'm gonna stay here for a while because I feel more useful here and I can experience this Yes+ thing. He didn't believe me, he said he knew exactly why I was here. And yea, I'll be honest, ofcourse Iva is an important factor for me to be here, but it's not like I'm not doing my job. It's not like I'm any less focused either. I heard alot of people tell me this, but it's bullshit, you just can't put it like that; you can't generalize and think that loving and working never goes together.
To be honest, I've found that it works quite well for me. Actually, it even works better than when I'm not around Iva, because now I'm less occupied thinking about her. Besides, didn't I choose to voluntarily do this CLP thing? Didn't I choose to organize and teach Yes+ courses around Europe? Then why would I suddenly hold back on this commitment, just because I met a girl I like? Come on! If you think that, then you truly don't know me, and you'd be better off keeping your prejudice to yourself, or even better: Burn it.
No hard feelings for Camille, I understand he thinks like this and he also told me something along the lines of: "You'll see that this doesn't work, but you'll have to find that out for yourself". Whatever man, I'll prove that I can mix business and pleasure, just so I don't get anymore of this shit because I've been hearing it too much lately. It's his strength and weakness; Camille definately has a decent way of handling things, but he thinks it's the only way. His consistency is a strength but it also serves as a weakness which is not gonna work for him. Yes maybe he'll get his way most of the time, but not without spending alot of energy. That's also what he told me; that he didn't feel like running behind everyone's asses to see whether they're doing their job properly. And he's completely right, so why not just trust me with my job and concentrate on your own? Besides, I have my own way of doing things so trying to control me is only gonna exhaust you. But hey, I'll do the right thing; I'm also part of the team and I'll do that which is in both my interest and the interest of the common wealth so to say. I have my own agenda and it can coexist in harmony with our mutual agenda. You just gotta give me some space, because I'm creative and I'll always find a way to make everyone happy.
But it's gotta start with trust; the knowledge that I'm putting my energy into the same direction and the faith that I'll deliver. Because I will, for fucking sure. This is something he has to understand and I'm sure he'll feel much less stressed if he takes this lesson to heart. And at the same time I'll feel more free because I don't have the police chasing my ass.
To emphasize the success we're having here: We had an intro workshop today, like 4 people showed up which was nice, and 2 of them will most likely come to the seminar. One for sure, because he signed up right then and there. His name is Tilman and he's one of the most talented musicians I've seen in a long time. He can play alot of different instruments, he can sing and rap and he's just simply a cool guy with whom I share alot of interests. After the intro workshop I went with him to his place where he was rehearsing with his band, I even joined in the jamming session with a drum; it was alot of fun! Later the girls came and we listened to some righteous stuff that they had composed, simply incredible. How they can play like masters and be so relaxed while doing it, everything was so in sync it was fuckin' A+. Tomorrow we'll meet them again when they're gonna perform somewhere, and they even have a place for us to stay! Because that's one of the biggest problems our group has been experiencing here; they need to move to another place like almost every other day because theres no place to stay for a while. Maybe that will change now, who knows. I just know that things are moving, things got set into motion and everything seems to be happening now automatically, like getting a 3 scoop icecream with a strawberry topping.
Anyway, tomorrow is the last opportunity to get more people for the Yes+ course which starts on wednesday, and I will stay for that course. I want to get this experience of assisting finally. I've waited long enough now, the opportunity is here and I'm planning on taking it. I need this because I still don't know if this teaching thing is for me. And whoever thinks that this is just about Iva; you can theorize until your brain turns grey but that's your problem, I'm just doing the right thing so please, don't try and bust my balls. They're made of steel anyway.
We made it to the finals but we lost that match, although I did manage to score! Saved our honour so to say. Then thursday the sweet and mischievous Iva showed up to...collect flyers, foreal!
We had a good time together, and I convinced her to stay for friday aswell cause she felt this need to go back to Freiburg to do some other stuff.
But we all know that nobody can say no to me, so she stayed and cheered for us on friday.
On friday we could hardly get enough players to fill up the spots on the field, with struggle we managed to convince just enough people to be able to play; we were 6 total.
So no substitutioning, playing full matches baby, it was tough at times but our team did really well. Actually, the day of rest that we had on thursday (although I didn't get much rest :o) really worked wonders; the experience from the day before was delivering on friday in more stamina, strength and technique. I was really happy with our play. I mean, yea, some of us barely played any football at all so you can't expect too much, but we really all pushed our limits and gave it our 100%.
Our results weren't as mindblowing as the first tournament, but the spirit was there just as strong as ever. As I like to say; we really felt the glory from within, and that's so true. We probably had more fun than those who actually won the tournament; we left the field cheering and screaming, it was good!
Then we had the best dinner ever, made by Khani. I tell you, and I told him aswell, he can easily replace the cooks in the Academy in Bad Antogast; it was that good, simply amazing.
I told Iva to take classes at Khani's kitchen, damn I want more of that stuff!
So what next, I escaped with Iva to Strassbourg. It was really good to spend time with her outside of the ashram. I mean even though it's kind of accepted by most people it's still not the same. Stefan, the janitor was making alot of jokes about it. I remember he was asking me why Iva was sleeping, I was like yea she's tired from yesterday and then he laughed "yea right". Also I had to lay a pipeline with Konstantinos, Stefan took the opportunity to joke about the lubrication that we had to use to put the pipes together, "yea Steven had has much practice the last few days!".
So we were in Strassbourg eating cheese and having wine, it was a really sunny weekend so we couldn't have picked a better time to do this. Something really changed since the last time we saw eachother, in a good way. This is real shit fo sho!
On sunday I went back with her to Freiburg. You see, Pernille is in Denmark right now so I didn't see much sense into going back to Osnabruck and being there alone trying to organize a basic course. Not when I can make myself so much more useful in Freiburg, because here they're organizing Yes+ which is so much cooler since it addresses young people. And I like to work with young people, I can connect easier and I like the energy that comes from uplifting them. I like to see their individual skills, which are so amazing, like Tilman who I met today, but more about him later.
Camille called me today, telling me I should head back to Osnabruck ASAP. I was like no I'm gonna stay here for a while because I feel more useful here and I can experience this Yes+ thing. He didn't believe me, he said he knew exactly why I was here. And yea, I'll be honest, ofcourse Iva is an important factor for me to be here, but it's not like I'm not doing my job. It's not like I'm any less focused either. I heard alot of people tell me this, but it's bullshit, you just can't put it like that; you can't generalize and think that loving and working never goes together.
To be honest, I've found that it works quite well for me. Actually, it even works better than when I'm not around Iva, because now I'm less occupied thinking about her. Besides, didn't I choose to voluntarily do this CLP thing? Didn't I choose to organize and teach Yes+ courses around Europe? Then why would I suddenly hold back on this commitment, just because I met a girl I like? Come on! If you think that, then you truly don't know me, and you'd be better off keeping your prejudice to yourself, or even better: Burn it.
No hard feelings for Camille, I understand he thinks like this and he also told me something along the lines of: "You'll see that this doesn't work, but you'll have to find that out for yourself". Whatever man, I'll prove that I can mix business and pleasure, just so I don't get anymore of this shit because I've been hearing it too much lately. It's his strength and weakness; Camille definately has a decent way of handling things, but he thinks it's the only way. His consistency is a strength but it also serves as a weakness which is not gonna work for him. Yes maybe he'll get his way most of the time, but not without spending alot of energy. That's also what he told me; that he didn't feel like running behind everyone's asses to see whether they're doing their job properly. And he's completely right, so why not just trust me with my job and concentrate on your own? Besides, I have my own way of doing things so trying to control me is only gonna exhaust you. But hey, I'll do the right thing; I'm also part of the team and I'll do that which is in both my interest and the interest of the common wealth so to say. I have my own agenda and it can coexist in harmony with our mutual agenda. You just gotta give me some space, because I'm creative and I'll always find a way to make everyone happy.
But it's gotta start with trust; the knowledge that I'm putting my energy into the same direction and the faith that I'll deliver. Because I will, for fucking sure. This is something he has to understand and I'm sure he'll feel much less stressed if he takes this lesson to heart. And at the same time I'll feel more free because I don't have the police chasing my ass.
To emphasize the success we're having here: We had an intro workshop today, like 4 people showed up which was nice, and 2 of them will most likely come to the seminar. One for sure, because he signed up right then and there. His name is Tilman and he's one of the most talented musicians I've seen in a long time. He can play alot of different instruments, he can sing and rap and he's just simply a cool guy with whom I share alot of interests. After the intro workshop I went with him to his place where he was rehearsing with his band, I even joined in the jamming session with a drum; it was alot of fun! Later the girls came and we listened to some righteous stuff that they had composed, simply incredible. How they can play like masters and be so relaxed while doing it, everything was so in sync it was fuckin' A+. Tomorrow we'll meet them again when they're gonna perform somewhere, and they even have a place for us to stay! Because that's one of the biggest problems our group has been experiencing here; they need to move to another place like almost every other day because theres no place to stay for a while. Maybe that will change now, who knows. I just know that things are moving, things got set into motion and everything seems to be happening now automatically, like getting a 3 scoop icecream with a strawberry topping.
Anyway, tomorrow is the last opportunity to get more people for the Yes+ course which starts on wednesday, and I will stay for that course. I want to get this experience of assisting finally. I've waited long enough now, the opportunity is here and I'm planning on taking it. I need this because I still don't know if this teaching thing is for me. And whoever thinks that this is just about Iva; you can theorize until your brain turns grey but that's your problem, I'm just doing the right thing so please, don't try and bust my balls. They're made of steel anyway.
Tuesday, 9 June 2009
Socratez on air!
Is is a bird? Is it a plane? Is it superman? NO! It's Socratez on air! Together with his femme fatale Pernille. Wings of Grace, I tell you, wings of Grace with a capital G cuz I'm a G boy working on behalf of The Dude.
So we went to this radio station yesterday and arranged for an interview there right on the spot. Within an hour we were sitting in the studio and answering some questions. It's gonna be a 3 minute show, so tune in on Osnabrueck radio! You'll hear my warm, charming and decisive voice mixed with Pernille sounding deep, sexy and dangerous! A righteous combination for sure.
What else, we also went to this fitness centre where I saw the stereotyphical German hot girl: blonde, big eyes, full lips, fine breasts and a nice tan. That's how we want them don't we. Oh and ofcourse, OFCOURSE, her name was Claudia! How couldn't it be, DOH!
Oh it gets even better, because Claudia likes them handcuffs; she wants to be a police woman. How much more do you need to have those engines in your brain start rolling, it's like putting NOS in your ferrari. Overkill!
You don't wanna know about my imagination powers, any normal human being would probably go insane after a single day. Keep that gun cocked and loaded with a full clip and all that energy goes into creativity. But you need to empty that clip at times, else it's only gonna annoy you. That's why celebacy don't work; there's no joy in keeping your finger on the trigger if you know you aint gonna shoot anyway.
It requires some discipline though; most people out there want to shoot as soon as they lock and load. Don't let your emotions guide you, nono, be in charge; YOU are the man and YOU own the gun, don't let the gun own you. Besides, nothing sucks so much as having to reload when you need to be ready to pop! Just because you couldn't get ahold of yourself. It's a shame, a damn shame. Cuz that's when you die, that's when young men get killed in the line of duty. Fought bravely my ass, they barely knew how their gun worked.
These guys coming with their big artillery thinking they own the place. But pride comes before the downfall, always. It's like sword fighting, it doesn't matter what sword you use, it's how you use it. The gun don't make the man, the man make the gun.
Fuck, if you should know anything, it's that one of the most famous sword fighters ever, Musashi, fought with wooden swords and crushed all the skulls of his opponents who were using real katanas. They thought he wasn't taking them seriously, but it's nothing about that. He was just using their weakness; ego. Thinking everything you see reflects back upon you, and it does, but not in the way that you might imagine.
So next time take a good look at that gun, polish it 'til it shines but don't pull the trigger. If you're really badass, you can cock it without having to shoot it. Then you are on your edge man!
On the edge, that's where you wanna be, cause then you're sharper than all those katanas combined even though you're using wooden swords.
You know what I'm saying? Fuckin' A if you do!
Another lesson by Socratez.
So we went to this radio station yesterday and arranged for an interview there right on the spot. Within an hour we were sitting in the studio and answering some questions. It's gonna be a 3 minute show, so tune in on Osnabrueck radio! You'll hear my warm, charming and decisive voice mixed with Pernille sounding deep, sexy and dangerous! A righteous combination for sure.
What else, we also went to this fitness centre where I saw the stereotyphical German hot girl: blonde, big eyes, full lips, fine breasts and a nice tan. That's how we want them don't we. Oh and ofcourse, OFCOURSE, her name was Claudia! How couldn't it be, DOH!
Oh it gets even better, because Claudia likes them handcuffs; she wants to be a police woman. How much more do you need to have those engines in your brain start rolling, it's like putting NOS in your ferrari. Overkill!
You don't wanna know about my imagination powers, any normal human being would probably go insane after a single day. Keep that gun cocked and loaded with a full clip and all that energy goes into creativity. But you need to empty that clip at times, else it's only gonna annoy you. That's why celebacy don't work; there's no joy in keeping your finger on the trigger if you know you aint gonna shoot anyway.
It requires some discipline though; most people out there want to shoot as soon as they lock and load. Don't let your emotions guide you, nono, be in charge; YOU are the man and YOU own the gun, don't let the gun own you. Besides, nothing sucks so much as having to reload when you need to be ready to pop! Just because you couldn't get ahold of yourself. It's a shame, a damn shame. Cuz that's when you die, that's when young men get killed in the line of duty. Fought bravely my ass, they barely knew how their gun worked.
These guys coming with their big artillery thinking they own the place. But pride comes before the downfall, always. It's like sword fighting, it doesn't matter what sword you use, it's how you use it. The gun don't make the man, the man make the gun.
Fuck, if you should know anything, it's that one of the most famous sword fighters ever, Musashi, fought with wooden swords and crushed all the skulls of his opponents who were using real katanas. They thought he wasn't taking them seriously, but it's nothing about that. He was just using their weakness; ego. Thinking everything you see reflects back upon you, and it does, but not in the way that you might imagine.
So next time take a good look at that gun, polish it 'til it shines but don't pull the trigger. If you're really badass, you can cock it without having to shoot it. Then you are on your edge man!
On the edge, that's where you wanna be, cause then you're sharper than all those katanas combined even though you're using wooden swords.
You know what I'm saying? Fuckin' A if you do!
Another lesson by Socratez.
Sunday, 7 June 2009
Forgiveness
I felt like Guruji today, seriously.
We did long kriya in some town that was a one hour drive away and during the meditation something special happened. I got some sort of vision, like an event that was playing in my head but it was interactive because I had the main role. It was strange, I was in this situation that I'm not going to explain in detail, but the bottom line was that someone dear me to broke my trust.
First I wasn't sure how to react, I felt alot of anger especially because of the way in which it all happened. But then it came, I started talking and everything just went to fluently; I wasn't thinking about what I was saying, I just spoke my heart and it all came out very smoothly.
The anger I felt was actually love, and I felt very strong and centered.
Then the situation changed, I was older and I was talking to my son, who was experiencing the same situation. It was then that I told him about forgiveness by explaining my own situation that happened in that first frame. After explaining this to him I understood the concept of forgiving much better, and then when I came out of the meditation I shared this knowledge with the group. Like I said, it felt like I was reading a passage from one of those books by Guruji.
So let's get to it, what is forgiveness?
There are 2 ways to forgive. You can forgive out of strength or out of weakness. Forgiving out of strength means forgiving from a space of love. But do not mistake this with forgiving out of weakness. Some people think they forgive out of love, but they forgive out of weakness. It is not from the space of love, but from a space of fear that they forgive. Fear to lose something if they do not forgive. Forgiving out of love is an act that will strengthen both parties, forgiving out of weakness will weaken both parties. From the space of love, you will criticize the person for his wrong doing and help him or her grow. From a space of fear you will only think of your own possible loss. Weakness doesn't inspire strength, it allows for more weakness. Through strength we inspire others to be strong, that's why forgiving out of strength, from a space of love, will be beneficial to both parties.
So how do we know when we forgive out of strength or out of weakness? Strength comes from a space of love, weakness comes from a space of fear. When you forgive out of weakness, you will feel weaker and it will come with doubts and fears. When you forgive out of strength, you will feel stronger and it will come with love and warmth.
So why did I receive this lesson? There's a reason for everything, including this. I wouldn't be surprised if I will face this kind of situation very soon, maybe even exactly the same situation as how it was played in my head. Who knows, time will tell. But either way it will be fine, in the way that everything is fine. You can take lessons out of everything, what happens to you happens to you because there's something to learn from it.
From that perspective, everything that crosses your path would have crossed it eventually anyway; it is inevitable and it will stay like that if you do not take the lessons to heart. What you resist persists, you can't skip classes in life. I wrote my latest song about this, on a beat that my friend Tom gave me. So if you read this: I got a kickass new song on 'Mijn Vespa' :)
Anyway, so much for today. Deep shit man, yea! But it aint hard to follow is it, after all, wisdom is simple. That's why philosophy is unsatisfying; it only resonates with the intellect, not with the self. Why do you think so many philosophers went mad? They knew the answer was out there but just couldn't find it, because they were looking in the wrong place.
When you try hard, you die hard. Effortless baby, effortless. Don't be a chode!
We did long kriya in some town that was a one hour drive away and during the meditation something special happened. I got some sort of vision, like an event that was playing in my head but it was interactive because I had the main role. It was strange, I was in this situation that I'm not going to explain in detail, but the bottom line was that someone dear me to broke my trust.
First I wasn't sure how to react, I felt alot of anger especially because of the way in which it all happened. But then it came, I started talking and everything just went to fluently; I wasn't thinking about what I was saying, I just spoke my heart and it all came out very smoothly.
The anger I felt was actually love, and I felt very strong and centered.
Then the situation changed, I was older and I was talking to my son, who was experiencing the same situation. It was then that I told him about forgiveness by explaining my own situation that happened in that first frame. After explaining this to him I understood the concept of forgiving much better, and then when I came out of the meditation I shared this knowledge with the group. Like I said, it felt like I was reading a passage from one of those books by Guruji.
So let's get to it, what is forgiveness?
There are 2 ways to forgive. You can forgive out of strength or out of weakness. Forgiving out of strength means forgiving from a space of love. But do not mistake this with forgiving out of weakness. Some people think they forgive out of love, but they forgive out of weakness. It is not from the space of love, but from a space of fear that they forgive. Fear to lose something if they do not forgive. Forgiving out of love is an act that will strengthen both parties, forgiving out of weakness will weaken both parties. From the space of love, you will criticize the person for his wrong doing and help him or her grow. From a space of fear you will only think of your own possible loss. Weakness doesn't inspire strength, it allows for more weakness. Through strength we inspire others to be strong, that's why forgiving out of strength, from a space of love, will be beneficial to both parties.
So how do we know when we forgive out of strength or out of weakness? Strength comes from a space of love, weakness comes from a space of fear. When you forgive out of weakness, you will feel weaker and it will come with doubts and fears. When you forgive out of strength, you will feel stronger and it will come with love and warmth.
So why did I receive this lesson? There's a reason for everything, including this. I wouldn't be surprised if I will face this kind of situation very soon, maybe even exactly the same situation as how it was played in my head. Who knows, time will tell. But either way it will be fine, in the way that everything is fine. You can take lessons out of everything, what happens to you happens to you because there's something to learn from it.
From that perspective, everything that crosses your path would have crossed it eventually anyway; it is inevitable and it will stay like that if you do not take the lessons to heart. What you resist persists, you can't skip classes in life. I wrote my latest song about this, on a beat that my friend Tom gave me. So if you read this: I got a kickass new song on 'Mijn Vespa' :)
Anyway, so much for today. Deep shit man, yea! But it aint hard to follow is it, after all, wisdom is simple. That's why philosophy is unsatisfying; it only resonates with the intellect, not with the self. Why do you think so many philosophers went mad? They knew the answer was out there but just couldn't find it, because they were looking in the wrong place.
When you try hard, you die hard. Effortless baby, effortless. Don't be a chode!
Saturday, 6 June 2009
Dig that shit
Hands busy, head empty, heart full.
That's basically what it means to do seva. Seva means doing service. Doing service means giving someone a hand without expecting anything in return. Why do we do seva? To clear our heads when we are stuck with something. But that is a practical reason, real seva is not about that. It's about giving and not about taking.
When you give, you get something back without having to take anything. But to give for this reason is not giving, it's taking. And when you take you don't get the same merit as when you give.
It's fundamentally different, giving comes from a sense of belonginess, taking doesn't. The difference may seem subtle in the way that I write it here, but it is huge. It is not about what you do, it's how you do it; it's about the consciousness that's underneath.
Some spiritual mumbo jumbo, do you follow? It's okay if you don't, but that was just an introduction to my real message: I was shoveling shit today. Horse shit to be precise.
And to be really honest, it wasn't even that bad of a job! Actually, it was fun in a way! Fun?! Nigga wut?! Yea, fun! Why? Simple, it was a new experience; I've never shoveled shit before, let alone horse shit. It was alot though! It seemed like a half an hour job, like the other job I got yesterday. I tell ya, working on a semi-farm is not only hard labour, but it's also never done; there's always more work to be done.
While I was shoveling shit I was even thinking this could work for my rapping career; I can now say that I worked my way up from shoveling shit for food! All by myself, an immigrant in Germany doing hard fucking labour to survive. I could make it into country side hustler!
Don't fuck with me in my hood, C-side 4 life. Ridin' on chromed horse shoes, picture me rollin'.
Anyway, enough of that. Wednesday I'll leave for Bad Antogast; we'll be playing a football match that same night. The tournament will be on the 10th and the 12th, so we'll probably have a free day on thursday. That'd be nice, sounds like a good opportunity to do some fhug (farm-thug) lovin', biological loverboy foreal! Hahahaha ohhh some people will get this, others think I'm crazy; both are true! Insane in the membrane baby, insane in the brain!
Maybe it's the time of the day, it's way too late. After the job was done I was pretty tired; 2 hours of shoveling shit, go figure.
Just remember to switch on your TV's on friday the 12th, it'll be globally broadcasted that I'll receive the world cup farmer boy football. If you thought Manchester - Barca was nice; eat your heart out kids, you aint seen nothing yet. Messi got it from me, a farmer boy gone commercial. Fucking comformist!
I mean come on...
Dig that shit.
-Socratez
That's basically what it means to do seva. Seva means doing service. Doing service means giving someone a hand without expecting anything in return. Why do we do seva? To clear our heads when we are stuck with something. But that is a practical reason, real seva is not about that. It's about giving and not about taking.
When you give, you get something back without having to take anything. But to give for this reason is not giving, it's taking. And when you take you don't get the same merit as when you give.
It's fundamentally different, giving comes from a sense of belonginess, taking doesn't. The difference may seem subtle in the way that I write it here, but it is huge. It is not about what you do, it's how you do it; it's about the consciousness that's underneath.
Some spiritual mumbo jumbo, do you follow? It's okay if you don't, but that was just an introduction to my real message: I was shoveling shit today. Horse shit to be precise.
And to be really honest, it wasn't even that bad of a job! Actually, it was fun in a way! Fun?! Nigga wut?! Yea, fun! Why? Simple, it was a new experience; I've never shoveled shit before, let alone horse shit. It was alot though! It seemed like a half an hour job, like the other job I got yesterday. I tell ya, working on a semi-farm is not only hard labour, but it's also never done; there's always more work to be done.
While I was shoveling shit I was even thinking this could work for my rapping career; I can now say that I worked my way up from shoveling shit for food! All by myself, an immigrant in Germany doing hard fucking labour to survive. I could make it into country side hustler!
Don't fuck with me in my hood, C-side 4 life. Ridin' on chromed horse shoes, picture me rollin'.
Anyway, enough of that. Wednesday I'll leave for Bad Antogast; we'll be playing a football match that same night. The tournament will be on the 10th and the 12th, so we'll probably have a free day on thursday. That'd be nice, sounds like a good opportunity to do some fhug (farm-thug) lovin', biological loverboy foreal! Hahahaha ohhh some people will get this, others think I'm crazy; both are true! Insane in the membrane baby, insane in the brain!
Maybe it's the time of the day, it's way too late. After the job was done I was pretty tired; 2 hours of shoveling shit, go figure.
Just remember to switch on your TV's on friday the 12th, it'll be globally broadcasted that I'll receive the world cup farmer boy football. If you thought Manchester - Barca was nice; eat your heart out kids, you aint seen nothing yet. Messi got it from me, a farmer boy gone commercial. Fucking comformist!
I mean come on...
Dig that shit.
-Socratez
Thursday, 4 June 2009
Dreamin'
It's done! Delivered good shit once again together with my homeboy TCK.
It's a love song on it's own, but really it's dedicated to shawty aka Iva. We encountered alot of problems along the way, mostly technical problems. It took hours and hours for us to deal with all the crap that was coming at us, but due to creativity and just plain determination we eventually got what we wanted. And it's sweet!
Man we rock together, and it's only starting. Dude we haven't even warmed up yet!
Iva, you're gonna love this, word.
So today I took a ride with Juliette's friend to Dusseldorf from which we took a train to Unna.
From there we got picked up by Andrej who was coming from Slovenia. We went to this little village called Werl where Guruji opened the new Ayurvedic Centre. It was not very spectacular but it was a nice little adventure nonetheless. After that we went to this Hindu temple where the priests did some ceremony. I had never seen it before so it was nice to witness something new.
The best part was the Indian candy afterwards, there was this shop with lots of candy and I bet they made big bucks out of us cause we were buying pretty much all their stuff and trying everything out. It was delicious, I'm still full as I'm writing this!
When that was done, I went into the car again, this time with the others of the Osnabruck group: Saba, Pernille and Agne. It's a nice group, Saba left tonight however to visit Italy for a week. The place we're staying at is really nice, it's right in the middle of the forests and they got alot of animals here. Like 4 cats, 2 dogs and 2 horses. Maybe if I'm lucky I even get to do some horse riding!
Oh and there will be this football tournament in Oppenau on the 10th, much like the other event a while ago. Only this time it'll be bigger and better, and less rain hopefully. We'll have more players and I'll make sure I get some proper shoes this time. We're gonna kick some ass, everyone is welcome to witness Yes We Can in full glory, and be our cheerleaders! And then ofcourse I wanna take one home with me afterwards, you know who! Hahahaha...
That's all for today folks, see you next time at Into the Wild brought to you by Socratez. Sponsored by all the CEO's in the world in cooperation with Eternal Grace and Swag 'r' Us.
It's a love song on it's own, but really it's dedicated to shawty aka Iva. We encountered alot of problems along the way, mostly technical problems. It took hours and hours for us to deal with all the crap that was coming at us, but due to creativity and just plain determination we eventually got what we wanted. And it's sweet!
Man we rock together, and it's only starting. Dude we haven't even warmed up yet!
Iva, you're gonna love this, word.
So today I took a ride with Juliette's friend to Dusseldorf from which we took a train to Unna.
From there we got picked up by Andrej who was coming from Slovenia. We went to this little village called Werl where Guruji opened the new Ayurvedic Centre. It was not very spectacular but it was a nice little adventure nonetheless. After that we went to this Hindu temple where the priests did some ceremony. I had never seen it before so it was nice to witness something new.
The best part was the Indian candy afterwards, there was this shop with lots of candy and I bet they made big bucks out of us cause we were buying pretty much all their stuff and trying everything out. It was delicious, I'm still full as I'm writing this!
When that was done, I went into the car again, this time with the others of the Osnabruck group: Saba, Pernille and Agne. It's a nice group, Saba left tonight however to visit Italy for a week. The place we're staying at is really nice, it's right in the middle of the forests and they got alot of animals here. Like 4 cats, 2 dogs and 2 horses. Maybe if I'm lucky I even get to do some horse riding!
Oh and there will be this football tournament in Oppenau on the 10th, much like the other event a while ago. Only this time it'll be bigger and better, and less rain hopefully. We'll have more players and I'll make sure I get some proper shoes this time. We're gonna kick some ass, everyone is welcome to witness Yes We Can in full glory, and be our cheerleaders! And then ofcourse I wanna take one home with me afterwards, you know who! Hahahaha...
That's all for today folks, see you next time at Into the Wild brought to you by Socratez. Sponsored by all the CEO's in the world in cooperation with Eternal Grace and Swag 'r' Us.
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