Forgiveness

I felt like Guruji today, seriously.
We did long kriya in some town that was a one hour drive away and during the meditation something special happened. I got some sort of vision, like an event that was playing in my head but it was interactive because I had the main role. It was strange, I was in this situation that I'm not going to explain in detail, but the bottom line was that someone dear me to broke my trust.
First I wasn't sure how to react, I felt alot of anger especially because of the way in which it all happened. But then it came, I started talking and everything just went to fluently; I wasn't thinking about what I was saying, I just spoke my heart and it all came out very smoothly.
The anger I felt was actually love, and I felt very strong and centered.

Then the situation changed, I was older and I was talking to my son, who was experiencing the same situation. It was then that I told him about forgiveness by explaining my own situation that happened in that first frame. After explaining this to him I understood the concept of forgiving much better, and then when I came out of the meditation I shared this knowledge with the group. Like I said, it felt like I was reading a passage from one of those books by Guruji.
So let's get to it, what is forgiveness?

There are 2 ways to forgive. You can forgive out of strength or out of weakness. Forgiving out of strength means forgiving from a space of love. But do not mistake this with forgiving out of weakness. Some people think they forgive out of love, but they forgive out of weakness. It is not from the space of love, but from a space of fear that they forgive. Fear to lose something if they do not forgive. Forgiving out of love is an act that will strengthen both parties, forgiving out of weakness will weaken both parties. From the space of love, you will criticize the person for his wrong doing and help him or her grow. From a space of fear you will only think of your own possible loss. Weakness doesn't inspire strength, it allows for more weakness. Through strength we inspire others to be strong, that's why forgiving out of strength, from a space of love, will be beneficial to both parties.
So how do we know when we forgive out of strength or out of weakness? Strength comes from a space of love, weakness comes from a space of fear. When you forgive out of weakness, you will feel weaker and it will come with doubts and fears. When you forgive out of strength, you will feel stronger and it will come with love and warmth.

So why did I receive this lesson? There's a reason for everything, including this. I wouldn't be surprised if I will face this kind of situation very soon, maybe even exactly the same situation as how it was played in my head. Who knows, time will tell. But either way it will be fine, in the way that everything is fine. You can take lessons out of everything, what happens to you happens to you because there's something to learn from it.
From that perspective, everything that crosses your path would have crossed it eventually anyway; it is inevitable and it will stay like that if you do not take the lessons to heart. What you resist persists, you can't skip classes in life. I wrote my latest song about this, on a beat that my friend Tom gave me. So if you read this: I got a kickass new song on 'Mijn Vespa' :)

Anyway, so much for today. Deep shit man, yea! But it aint hard to follow is it, after all, wisdom is simple. That's why philosophy is unsatisfying; it only resonates with the intellect, not with the self. Why do you think so many philosophers went mad? They knew the answer was out there but just couldn't find it, because they were looking in the wrong place.
When you try hard, you die hard. Effortless baby, effortless. Don't be a chode!