Walking in Grace

Goodness, my children, so much has happened in the past few weeks. In all the chaos I couldn't find time to easily sit my ass down and let my thoughts gently touch the keyboard. But right now I'm in a haven of peace, a place where I can always go, always able to return to; a place I call home. Here I can write in peace.

A lot of things happened lately; I first went to Bad Antogast, then I went to Holland to pick up Iva at the airport, and then we had a great time visiting my friends and family in Holland. It was really amazing and I'm really happy that she came to visit me here. It was a shame that the christmas dinner I was so much looking forward to, was cancelled due to bad weather, but there wasn't anything we could do about it.

I mean, what to do about the weather? Not worth getting upset about. Iva thought differently; she was very annoyed by the incompetence of the Dutch railways. And yes, the dutch railways weren't doing much of a good job as usually. At least they didn't check for tickets, so we didn't have to pay the ridiculously overpriced travel fees. You would think that our high tech trains can handle a bit of snow, but it seems that the more advanced the technology gets, the more sensitive it gets to environmental changes as well.

But enough about that, it's not worth typing about. What is worth typing about, is how much I love Iva. I feel so fulfilled with her, she's a really nice kitty girl to care for. It was strange to see her leave again today; one moment she's in your arms, the next moment she's on her way home, 1000 miles away from you. It's tough to switch back to separation, especially after only a week. I can't wait to start something new with her when I'm done with the YWC program!

So what will that be? We've been thinking about Amsterdam; I can get us a place to live, make some money, and make music, while she finishes her study. But she's also looking into her New York thing. I don't know if I can follow her all the way into Manhattan if she decides to go there soon, but we'll see. You never know what's in store for you. There's always a plan, you'll encounter something sooner or later that points you into the right direction. You just gotta dare to make a leap of faith. Does that mean I should move to NYC with her? Or does it mean that would just be the crossroads where our ways will part?

I have no idea, but I hope I'll be able to enjoy her for some more time. I aint worried though; no reason to do so at all. Just be grateful for what you got, for you're walking in grace anyway. Spoiled people fail to see the beauty in their lives, instead they complain about what they don't have. Is that worth stressing yourself over? What if you could change your whole world just by changing yourself? It would be a most efficient way of living. All you have to do, is to be honest with yourself. Feeding other people shit is business and politics, but feeding yourself shit is just plain stupid.

Eat fresh, be fresh.

P.S. and a big thanks to all my homies who were there to meet my lovely girl; don't worry, I'll bring her back again someday!