Encore

Yesterday I left Zagreb, after 3 weeks. It was a smooth ride back to Bad Antogast, where I'm staying now. Although I'm already looking for a ticket back home; I wasn't really looking forward to cleaning more dishes. Reason why I came here is to see my friend Felix who joined YWC 2010, make a song with Rodion, and to see the final edit of the Source which I've been working on. Rodion, to my disappointment, just left BA a few days ago however, and will only be back in like 2 weeks. So I guess this song will have to be some other time then.

Tonight hopefully I'll get to meet the YWC group. As expected Katya doesn't want me to go and interfere with their training. Not to my surprise, because I figured AoL is nothing different than any other - commercial or charitable - organization. Basically they want you to fit into a certain pattern, and if you don't do that you're not considered valuable. To be with the organization your whole personality should be about the organization. Needless to say, that's not my cup of tea.

So I hope I'll see the gang tonight, cause I'm quite curious. But I'm not gonna stay here any longer than necessary. I think when I get home I'm gonna take a break from AoL for a while. I like the work but I don't like the organization. The work is the only reason why I did it anyway. I would like to keep teaching though, but I think I'm gonna start creating my own thing. I'll first get some more experience, more knowledge, assist some more AoL courses and the like.

I've been thinking about a way to make money for myself, without having some stupid people telling me what to do, and getting paid in cash. Setting up my own workshops would be an ideal solution. It will give me the opportunity to develop my skills the way I want to, do work I really like to do, and make a good living out of it. I can start by charging little, getting popularity that way, and then raise prices slightly. I definitely want to work with young people, so it'll be something similar to Yes+.

Anyway, it's something for in the future, because I really want to be able to offer something incredible to my participants. It's not like I'm doing it for the money, but I do need to get paid one way or another. Like, if I didn't have to make any money, I would still want to do something like this. At least it will be without the guru, instead, I will make guru's out of them! Just to say, real empowerment lies in believing in yourelf, not some guru. I don't mean any disrespect towards dear Sri Sri; I think he's a really nice and amazing guy. It's just that people get so caught up with this whole guru thing they completely lose perspective of their own capabilities. Like if he would die tomorrow, how many people would feel utterly hopeless and powerless?

I don't believe that this is something he would want to happen. I don't believe that he wants people to surrender their powers to him, but people do just do it themselves. This is what the government does to people by creating a so called Problem-Reaction-Solution construct. They create a problem, let the people panic (a reaction is not the same as a response, but a programmed behaviour), then provide a solution, which the people will gladly embrace. Patriot Act anyone?

Anyway, my YWC encore ends here. In June I will go to Dresden for a festival, but that's about it. My best wishes for the next generation, it was a pleasure, mostly because I met a wonderful girl, who I won't see for the next 3 months! What to do? Just accept and look forward to the next time.

I'll start planning my flight already :)