The Verdict

Hey wazzup?!
So TTC2 ended, after 6 intensive days. Normally this course takes 3 weeks. Ofcourse it's impossible to be familiar with the content like a graduate who's had the complete program, but then again that wasn't really the point of this course.
Rajshri wanted us to be teachers not just while giving courses, but mostly in our daily lives.
Besides, content is just a matter of practice, that's why we'll be assisting on yes+ courses throughout Germany, Holland and France.
Later on we'll be going to Portugal and Scandinavia aswell.

Today we had our last day and the teacher announced who was going to receive the kriya tape and manual and who was going to need more time. Quite alot of people got the tape, most of us actually. However I didn't, but that's fine. To be honest, I wasn't sure about being a teacher anyway, I mean I would like to teach, but I just can't say that with the same conviction as the others.
And that's what was most important to her; your mentality about becoming a teacher. Everyone knows that I can speak well in public, and that I have qualities that would be nice for a teaching role, but I first need to be certain of what I want.

She told me that in the way I want to make music, I should have a similar motivation for this, and I completely agree. She said herself that everyone could be a teacher, it's just that some people need some more time to make up their mind or time to grow more and open themselves up. I was told to assist Yes+ in Holland so I can get this experience, and then I'll be ready to make a choice.
Yes you read it right, I'm going to Holland within a few days. I don't know how long I'll be staying but it'll be for a while for sure. I'll be helping Ajay setting up and teaching courses.

You know, when you get this kriya tape it's something really special, and it should feel like that. When you get something valuable without being aware of the value, you lose merit. I need to become aware of this value before I can receive it, else it would not be good for my personal growth. You have to understand that she's here to serve us, the students. She will decide what's best for us personally. I'm convinced that this will be best for me, besides, what does it matter in the end whether I get it now or in a few weeks/months?
To me it doesn't, I was going over the possibility of not getting the teaching privilege while she was calling people forward and I just didn't feel disappointment when I thought of it. Not because I don't care, because I really do. It's more that I know that I'm walking the path of my dreams, so I'm contempt by default.
Ofcourse I will get disappointed sometime, but I don't mind getting disappointed. Ofcourse I will get smacked sometime, but I don't mind getting smacked. In the end, the drawbacks I'll get are those that I need, and the successes will be those that I want. Life is already good to me, and it'll only get better.

And it only started half a year ago, I can't imagine what will be in 5 years. I couldn't have dreamt about the leaps that I took over the last weeks, I really feel like driving on the fastlane.
Anyway, so much for TTC2, it was fun, a great experience and a unique opportunity that I've been truly graced with. I've also started on a new song that I'll perform with a teacher here, she's so cool!
So see you guys soon in Holland, I'll be there for my dad's birthday aswell and I can't wait to see your faces again. :)