Brain Ninjas

The worst position you can be in: The Jealous Boyfriend.

You don't wanna be, you always said to yourself "anything but that". But let me tell you homie, cuz it's like smiling; it aint hard to smile when you're happy, but can you still do it when you're sad? Same goes for jealousy.

It is one of the worst feelings imaginable. I'm feeling like this right now, and the cause is irrelevant, because one could get jealous about anything as long as one is miserable. I'm sure many of you have felt this some time or another in your life, and it was never pretty. Jealousy easily degrades your state rapidly, making you feel from bad to worse.

So what to do in this situation? The initial urge is to let the feeling take you over, and do things that you regret not much later. If you can, abstain from this, and if you can't, try to keep the damage under control. You'd be surprised to know how easily you can fuck things up in a short amount of time. You feel the rage, coming up like the steam. You try to keep your mouth closed but then it'll just come out your eyes and ears; you can't just stop steam.

Yet, if you start swearing, you'll just turn up the heat, and the steam will get even worse. How to cool down? First off, don't surpress your feelings; they're there, be honest about it. Observe it, don't act on it, and if you can't keep it to yourself, then find a way to express it in a positive way. Like, write down how you feel, and make a joke about it. Laughter is the cure for anything.

Steven, why are you so upset about nothing? Everything is impermanent. Your life, your relationship, and your feelings towards that relationship. Who cares about something that is a fraction of your relationship, a fraction of your life? Besides, life is too short to be jealous. And that's it, there's never a reason to be jealous. You live your life, I live mine. We choose to share our lives with people we care about. It's not a right, but a privilege, so respect it as such.

You have your own terms, find someone who values the same things. Anything else is just bound to cause problems one way or another. Relationships aren't about love, but about living together in harmony. Anyone can love you, and you can love anyone.

So what now? Well, all that's left of my rage is a smoldering pile of ashes now, although I should be very careful not to throw wood on it now! Before you know it I'm enraged again. But it's ok; I'll see myself through it. These things aint worth ruining my mood.

And that's the lesson for today kids: Don't ever let jealousy get to you. And don't think that trying to make someone else jealous will make you any less jealous! You'll just be fooling yourself. Next to that, which muppet would want to make someone else jealous? That's like the pinnacle of insecurity; to see if people really do give a damn.

And honestly, I do give a damn, but not about your insecurities.