Peaceful Warrior

It's official; I'm sick.
My tonsils are huge, got a bad cough and am bit feverish.
After seeing the episode of southpark where cartman gets his tonsils removed I never wanna have it come to that! But really, I believe there's a reason they're there so that's why they should stay. Anyway, I got some good medicine here, so I should be able to get back to rocking the world soon enough. Ayurvedic baby, fuck the chems.

Yesterday I watched Gladiator again, I think I've seen it like 4 times now, and everytime I watch it gives me the chills up my spine again. Last time I saw it was quite some time ago, and this time the experience was more intense than ever before.
Being more connected to myself nowadays, I can imagine that I'm more sensitive to things that resonate with a forgotten part of me. I believe we're more than just our bodies; all that we are in the physical world is just an expression of our true selves: Consciousness. That's why people who meditate have stronger brain waves, which is just an indicator of that which lies beneath.

Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that even though I was already pretty sure that I've been in the military in a past life, the feeling only grows stronger. Especially in the opening scene I felt a rush I've never felt so strong before. It's ironic that even though I'm so against war on a rational level, I cannot help but to be fascinated by it at the same time. I would really like to do my eternity process; finding out about my past lives to get a better insight into myself.

The warrior's path is what I want to walk, but I'll fight against ignorance. All I want in life is a warrior's death; giving my life for something good. It will be worth it.